What more could I say, Today?

[thoughts from   ~burning woman~  as expressed by Sha’Tara]

When I dare myself to write about the concept of compassion, what am I thinking?  What am I feeling?  What are my motives?

I thought I should enter into that monologue, it’s crucially important, I think.

Check: trying to impress?
I looked at that possibility, for pride is one of those vices adept at boldly walking through unlocked back doors or slinking through a partially open window, picking the most comfortable chair in the sitting room and saying, “Ah, this is home.”  I have had my days, long ago, when this was the case.  I have known popularity and experienced a degree of “fandom” which people smarter than I exploited.  Pride sustained me… and damn near killed me.  So today I can unequivocally say, “No, it is not pride that is driving my thoughts and desires now.”  I can’t work with pride.  It hurts me whenever it hovers near.

Check: the need to be believed?
There is no denying that “to be believed” is a powerful motivator.  I could easily change how I approach the subject of compassion in ways that bring individuals into my own created wake of thoughts, and locally, into my commitments and deeds.  I could start a group, a movement, register a “charitable” organization, raise money, etc.  Not difficult when you know how and you’ve been trained in it.  So I take a long and deep look at my motives and again I can say, I’ve been there; so many have been there, gained a following, and for what?  Did those followers benefit at all?  Did their lives change when they became followers?  Not at all.  A follower is just that.  A follower remains unempowered and worse, becomes more dis-empowered, filled with self-doubts.

Check: the hope that I can be the cause of palpable change?
That sounds quite altruistic, doesn’t it?  I could claim, “not for me, but for the good of (fill in the blanks)” and what comes next if I discover that yes, I did cause some change?  The unavoidable Siren call for more.  Success, however small, calls for more success.  It’s the System, how it works.  The Matrix doesn’t care if you do good or evil, it’s all the same when it becomes personal, and important.  Note that word: important.  Once we reach some level of importance, it becomes self-importance: there’s that hubris.  I may not acknowledge that I care, but everything in me, and around me, will demand that I produce more of this success.  Inevitable.  So, do I want to see palpable change from my own words or deeds?  No, not ever.  It is not for me to see it, or hear of it.

Check: the “need” to feel special, holy, superior?
Good question.  Why do I leave working for myself, eschew gainful work to go help a stranger in need who can’t afford to repay me?  What’s really behind that?  I have been a very religious person and I remember what was lurking behind my “good deeds” then.  There always was an agenda.  I wasn’t primarily helping, I was fishing for conversions.  There is only one word to describe that: hypocrisy.  The sin of the “Pharisees” in the gospels, but we were very good at hiding that from our own motivation.  So, do I want to feel those things?  I do feel them, sure, but I can state truthfully that I reject those feelings.  I am not special, “holy” or superior.  I am a servant with no other title.  I know this and I accept that this self-chosen path is the only way I will ever come to a blending of personality with compassion.

What has this changed life demonstrated to me over the last decades?  That every day can be “Christmas” in the giving sense.  I learned what giving is all about, and what it does to me.  So… I give, and give, and give and am I depleted, either of resources or personal energy?  Not at all.  I am like a tree planted at the edge of a great desert, growing tall and strong because every night an “angel” comes and pours water over my roots.  That “angel” is compassion and in time he and I will become as one and it is I who will carry the watering can that never empties.

There is no denying that I “want” something; that I have an agenda.  But what I have chosen to desire can in no way cause harm to anyone or anything else – while I am fully engaged in my quest.  Compassion is as superior to all other “virtues” as “heaven” would be from “hell.”  Many would, and will, deny this.  They will bring up “love” as another means of changing oneself, or the world.  Perhaps they will bring up other “virtues” to challenge my claim that only compassion can work without harming.  Only compassion.

How is compassion different from love which is considered the greatest of all virtues?  Only those who have made their purpose to literally become compassion can know the simple answer to that.  For others it must remain words, semantics, and their endless interpretations.  For all others, no explanation can ever satisfy, or be acceptable.

Check:  compassion is self-empowered.  It is a “stand alone” program that once fully integrated into the individual, becomes its sole operating system.  Compassion does not come surrounded by a bevy of other virtues.   Compassion is not reciprocal – those who talk about these things seem to completely miss, or ignore, this crucial point.  It means that compassion requires no support from anything or anyone.  It needs no confirmation.  It has absolutely no expectation of any positive or even negative, results.  A compassionate individual doesn’t care about results; doesn’t need affirmation or confirmation.   She just “does it” because that is her nature.   Will she be praised, ignored, reviled?  None of that matters.  Goddess-earth1

Let me quote from one of the Teachers, again:  “When none of it matters, it will all be yours.” (YLea of the WindWalkers)  They never explained this, and that was long before I decided I would be an avatar of compassion.  I simply did not know there was a connection but now I do.  None of “it” matters to me, and now I know what “it will all be yours” means.  It means taking responsibility for all of it.  It means to allow myself to be turned inside out and become an empath.  It means becoming a compassionate human and no turning back, whatever comes.

What more could I say, today?  Through a willingness to “serve” without asking questions I have become a gift unto myself.  A sobering thought, that.

23 thoughts on “What more could I say, Today?

      1. Sha'Tara Post author

        Ah, thank you for the explanation. I thought that’s what you meant but I did not want to assume so.

    1. Sha'Tara Post author

      Truth there! The more individuals recognize this, the more things will change to the better. Fact, not just hope. Thanks, Sarah.

      1. adamspiritualwarrior

        ShaTara look at this

        October 2, 2017 at 12:39 am
        The Eclipse has transferred us into a different reality. There’s a reason it went opposite instead of east to west. Watch what you “think” now as it’ll come true much easier. I’m probably one of the first to point this out as I can feel we aren’t in Kansas anymore


      2. Sha'Tara Post author

        Thanks for your comment, Adam. I don’t know much about Kansas, but from what I’ve read, I wouldn’t want to live there anyway!!! Dorothy can have the whole shebang! I’ll check out the link you posted and as time permits, comment back.

  1. franklparker

    Another great post – and one that contains a surprising admission: you referred to yourself as ‘human’ with the implication that we earthlings can be compassionate. If I believed in a creator I’d say ‘God bless you’. I don’t, but I think you know what I mean by those words. (Funny how it’s hard to find an effective alternative!)

    1. Sha'Tara Post author

      One more point, Frank. Why do people of earth call themselves “earthlings” which is a pejorative diminutive? My people call us “Earthians” which makes sense. If we were on Mars we’d be known as Martians; if on Venus, Venusians. If on earth, what’s wrong with Earthian? (or its variant: Eartheans, or Earthens – but I prefer it with the “i”). I know it goes back to early 20th C bad sci-fi. “Take me to your leader, Earthling.” says the powerful, dangerous and imposing alien. We’re so used to belittling ourselves re the gods, or whatever alien lifeform we may yet encounter, even our dictionaries use the term “earthling.”

      1. franklparker

        Interesting question, to which I certainly don’t have the answer. You introduce an interesting side issue, however: that of our status relative to ‘aliens’. How is it that, whenever certain of us encountered alien races here on Earth, we behaved as though we were superior, yet in SF it is the aliens (visitors from beyond the solar system) who are seen as superior (and probably hostile)? I think I do have the answer to that: the ‘superior’ group is in both cases the one that has the knowledge and ability to travel to the other group’s homeland. And, in the case of SF, perhaps the author(s) was/were attempting to empathise with those who had experienced invasion and occupation by a group that regarded themselves as superior.

      2. Sha'Tara Post author

        That does make sense, thanks. Now the equalize the global slate we need to learn to think of ourselves as equals, neither superior nor inferior, regardless of our race, gender and place in the scheme of things. I can already see a huge problem regarding those who have attained a status they consider superior and due to their own hard work and smarts even when none of that applies. Thanks for your comment, Frank.

  2. Sha'Tara Post author

    At the risk of wearing out those two words: thank you, Frank. I’m not supposed to care about “praise” but your words brought tears to my eyes. Go figure… And… oh, yes: the people of earth can indeed become compassionate and empathic. The “program” is already downloaded. It just needs to be installed but before anyone can do that, they need to have a password. Mine is “Forever.”

  3. Rosaliene Bacchus

    “A compassionate individual doesn’t care about results; doesn’t need affirmation or confirmation. She just “does it” because that is her nature. Will she be praised, ignored, reviled? None of that matters.”
    ~ Totally agree, Sha’Tara.

    What exactly is this “compassion” of which you speak?

    THE CHARTER FOR COMPASSION, created by Karen Armstrong and the Council of Conscience in 2009, begins as follows:

    “The principle of compassion lies at the heart of all religious, ethical and spiritual traditions, calling us always to treat all others as we wish to be treated ourselves. Compassion impels us to work tirelessly to alleviate the suffering of our fellow creatures, to dethrone ourselves from the centre of our world and put another there, and to honour the inviolable sanctity of every single human being, treating everybody, without exception, with absolute justice, equity and respect.”

    1. Sha'Tara Post author

      Thank you for your response, Rosaliene. Remember, we don’t have to agree, and that’s OK with you (!) It is also totally OK with me: philosophical discussions should never be about agreement but about shining a greater light on a particular subject.

      What is this compassion of which I speak? Ah, well, in my world there is but one kind of compassion, and that’s compassion. I have read some of Karen’s offerings on compassion and… (dare I disagree? – again!)
      I see glaring problems, hence why I did not join. First, compassion (in my world!) cannot function within any group, or as a group consciousness. That would not only be a contradiction, but attempting to place it into the hands of the Matrix which cannot be done, since compassion is a kind of “universal solvent” that would destroy all the works of the Matrix, or System it touches. Perhaps the toughest “lesson” of all regarding becoming an avatar of compassion is one cannot seek help, or support, from any other in this. That is what makes it so different and difficult for Earthians. It is natural for most Earthians to seek approval, support, help, understanding, comfort, from another, or others. At that point, it is no longer compassion.

      A group by definition is not self-empowered, and no-one, without exception, can become a compassionate being, or even practice compassion, who is not self-empowered. That’s the key, and there’s the rub, and that’s the “kind” of compassion I write about, and actually practice. I’d say that half the “trick” of being compassionate is doing something and half is refusing to do something. I provide the soil compassion grows in until all of me has been absorbed into “it” and there is nothing left over. The final frontier here is to just be compassion, with no other awareness of the previous self.

      How does one know if one is really compassionate; practicing compassion? Take pleasure, happiness, comfort or contentment and convert those into nothing but Joy. Take suffering, pain, and loss and convert those into Sorrow. The only conversion mechanism that can do this is compassion, through self-empowerment, which means detachment (from all selfish desires) and the personally and internally chosen path of self-sacrifice. The path of the servant. Sorrow and Joy (capitalized) are utterly selfless, never – EVER – about the self. They are what the empath, or compassionate being senses and feels and knows of the surrounding world. They are not given rise to from her own problems, however painful, sad, happy or pleasant. The compassionate person is more of a being than a person; s/he doesn’t actually exist any longer since to her or him, nothing (personal) matters. They become those who walk between the worlds, leaving no footprints for any other to try to follow in.

      Of crucial importance: the compassionate being walks alone. Anyone who chooses to become compassion (not just compassionate) will be a loner. Since compassion is inclusive and non-reciprocal, the compassionate being entertains no special relationships, eschewing conjugal and family relationships simply because they demand special attention and really, they’re just another aspect of “the group” which the compassionate neither participates in or partakes of for there is no felt need of such.

      When I speak of or write about, compassion, I’m really talking about an entirely new type of human. These humans exist on other worlds since it was their Teachers who painstakingly explained it all to me, and tested me in this. But it would be new here.

      Here’s a quote, taken somewhat out of context but it illustrates my point. From the letter to the Romans, the NIV Bible: “Ro. 12:2 Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind.”

      This struck me as particularly meaningful so long ago when I was studying to become a “minister” after I became a “born again” Christian (about 15 years after I’d given up on Catholicism). I understood the power that we had been given to change ourselves totally simply by transforming our minds, i.e., by turning ourselves completely around from all that we’d been told, and taught, rejecting it all unilaterally, becoming “as a little child” and re-connecting only after this new idea had taken root when a totally different perspective could be used to observe “the world.”

      The kind of compassion I write about, and practice, is simply an outgrowth of this self-chosen mind transformation.

      I hope that clarifies some points, but questions, however pointed, definitely welcome (from anyone!) Take care o’ you, Rosaliene, and the best with the novel(s)!

  4. Phil Huston

    Altruism is its own reward, but that isn’t a motivator because the reward can’t be quantified. Or justified. Unlike other things that are self rewarding and quantifiable. Those are the diseases. I’ve often wondered if compassion was a cure. But I’m afraid only on a personal basis. Hold out a hand and offer. It’s the the very best you can be. Nice one. Bulky :), but good.

    1. Sha'Tara Post author

      Thanks, Phil. So now I’m a “Bulky” writer? I always knew that, blame it on my ESL, and propensity to still translate wordy French into English – something like 3 words for every single word needed in English! Altruism… hmmm… gonna have to do some serious pondering on that word, see how it fits into my mindset. Funny I never thought of that when working with compassion. You are correct (see, didn’t begin with “And”…) compassion is a strictly personal “thing” or path, or whatever. It is a choice that only the individual can make, and it demands complete adherence. A tall order for any “Earthian” as we do like the freedom to wander between our glorious desires and our much less desirable lusts. Perhaps that is why compassion can be so powerfully life-changing. It’s like a spiritual martial art – all or nothing; do or die. If you opt to put it aside for a day or so to indulge some lustful fantasy… you will not be able to reconnect. It’ll be game over. Personally, that’s what I like about it because that’s what I “need” – what I was looking for in my approaches to the Christian discipleship walk. Once you commit, there’s no turning back. It’s a sort of “blasphemy.”


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