I’m a philosopher by experience but also because I am a natural-born Altarian. We are doers, of course, but not exactly fools who rush in where angels fear to tread. Before we act we seek to know. Of course it is not always possible to know, since knowledge emanates from a blend of experience and information. So we act on what what we’ve studied and already know from experience and attempt to move forward. Thus we are more than what we do; we do not necessarily act according to what we are – that is, what we have become. We do not allow nature or programming to box us in so easily. As the doctor pointed out, we have a devious mind developed for one purpose: to thread its way unerringly through the labyrinth of life. That labyrinth takes us, of necessity, through the darkest paths of hell — through the experience of evil.
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Chronicler Michele Dellman notes a shift in the monologue here.
The following is purportedly from An’Tierra’s own actually hand-written notes found in the same medical facility attached to the gladiator compound in the Great Keep of the city of Hyrete in the kingdom of Elbre. They were uncovered buried under a corner stone, sealed in a cheelth envelope she probably had her blacksmith friend manufacture for her. These are An’Tierra’s own words as she wrote them. We must assume that the reason for this shift would be because the “recorder” was not available and she was convalescing at the time.
‘Sometimes when we find our forward movement lost in some impenetrable fog, we must retrace some steps, look back and take stock of our understanding.
And in this search for the source of evil, I must now look back. I will probe ever deeper into my memories and find me, or a partial me, who has already done this kind of evil and I will study myself there. I will dig out that buried part of my past that I may understand Malefactus and from this knowledge, trace the evil to its source. The bait that will attract this source to me is my own heart; that part of it that once belonged to evil and for which evil has, and probably always will have, an affinity – or until I discover the source of this sickness and destroy it.
There could be no better time than now to do this. Already so deeply compromised, with little room remaining in my heart to go but up, I must firmly and conclusively go down those remaining steps into my ultimate darkness and embrace my own spiritual death. In that death, I, An’Tierra, will personally atone for all the deaths I have seen – and been the cause of – on this world and before that. The difficult process of redemption can thus begin – with me. That was always the plan, to lose myself in this process out here on one of Earth’s stack worlds which could be referred to as a part of the ISSA conscience of Earth.
Why conscience? Because it should be evident by now that the real purpose of any set of stack worlds is to provide a place where incarnates of ISSA consciousness of any such world can find a temporary home after dis-incarnation – after their physical death. The spirits, or ‘souls’ of people needed a place of rest during their ‘lost’ times between incarnations. So their makers; their gods, created astral copies of their world which I, long ago while still living on Earth, dubbed stack worlds. These worlds have been variously described as the Abode of the Dead; Heaven; Valhalla; Nirvana; Olympus; Great Beyond; Limbo; Purgatory; Sheol; Tartarus; Hades; Place of Torment; Hell and a host of other names found in all Earthian languages – all of them. They feature heavily in all of man’s religious beliefs and mythology. Nor are the concepts and beliefs tied to them restricted to Old Earth. Wherever humanity is found, this belief is also found. The reason for this is simple.
Over the aeons of human evolution and climb to self-awareness, it became evident that “life” was more than one short passage on some world, having a series of perhaps interesting but ultimately meaningless experiences after which came permanent obliteration of all that one had ever been, ever known, ever accomplished. Teachers, often called lords or saints; avatars or saviours, appeared here and there over the years and taught continuity of life, personal responsibility and accountability to the whole through worship of some divine source or ‘All Thing’ called God and a turning away from doing evil. Such evil was generally described as that which causes harm to others and would earn one eternal punishment in some sort of torment or annihilation.
It was taught that spirits or souls of the dead went to certain “worlds” where they were permanently rewarded for their good deeds in heaven; or where they were prepared for a return to their “home” world – in this case Earth – through further spiritual evolution by suffering, either in ‘purgatory’ or on some other astral world. Or, they were permanently banished to suffer eternally in hell for having lived evil lives without repenting of such. These were the basic, simplistic teachings given Earthians by their Teachers.
Some described these outer or astral worlds graphically, the best known images of such worlds being the joys of heaven and the tortures of hell. Generic terms that served well enough in their time but have now lost their meaning entirely. In the spiritual emptiness of Earth, from the 19th Century (C-19) to C-22, dissatisfied individuals began to earnestly search for the real abodes of the dead. By the end of C-22 no one believed in death as termination. It was then known that de-incarnation meant re-incarnation somewhere else. It was also known by then that the ancient gods, or the God – basically male and autocratic – was no longer in charge of events in the cosmos. A great shift had taken place which all ISSA beings sensed even if they did not comprehend its nature and wanted to deny it having taken place.
By the end of C-22 Earthians were dying by the millions. Localized armed conflicts of a violence and viciousness never seen before flared and burned in every large country, and these broke up into small fiefs, kingdoms or independent city-states. Unknown diseases, mostly caused by decomposing human bodies, ravaged large areas leaving few alive. Waves of genocides were launched by groups against groups until no one remained to fight or one overcame the other and totally decimated them. Revolutions took their toll. So-called Earth changes, Earthquakes and tsunamis devastated low lands and mountain cities. Food growing lands were poisoned by the rampaging waters filled with deadly chemicals, residues from destroyed petro-chemical refining and storage plants and the ever-present pestilence caused by decomposing bodies of humans and animals.
By the onset of the 22nd century (C-22), Earth had begun to enter her Great Death that would proceed inexorably to the middle of C-24, bringing the peak human population from 8.6 billions at the end of C-21 to possibly less than one billion. (The exact lower figure is unavailable as the die-back was still in effect when I was in contact with information from Earth) This massive die-back began to have a sobering effect upon the technological and market-place madness that had rendered Earth all but un-inhabitable for most land and sea life. But one thing remained to plague Earthian humanity: its inability to consider equality of genders. Through the die-back, women and children’s position in society fell drastically once more. Men regained most of their patriarchal power positions and absolute authority. Female and child slavery surfaced openly everywhere. Sexual bondage became the only way a woman had for seeking protection for herself and her children if she had any.
During those terrible times a small group of WindWalkers incarnated on Earth to study the situation. As one of those (we were only five individuals) and an “expert” on Earthian mores, besides being now a full-fledged Altarian master of logic, I led this group. Our purpose was not meant to render physical help as such an effort would have required a massive input of support and services from the Galactic human family which was at that time weakened by, and fully involved in, fighting the Melkiar invasion and in any case was still cut-off from interaction with Earth and her stack worlds.
We concentrated our efforts in determining what was wrong with the thinking patterns of Earthians, that they could not see the damage they were doing to themselves and their world by oppressing the female aspect.
At the beginning of our investigations we had blamed their misogynist tendencies squarely unto their greater religions, all of whom claimed a divine right to make laws based on worship of a single Male Deity that basically, in whatever form worshipped, feared and hated the female. But these fabrications were no longer in contention for power. What remained was purely secular. Political power was ascendant, followed distantly by money. A kind of Neo-Late-Dark-Age mindset ruled the planet.
The five of us, three males and two females disguised as males of necessity, used various approaches to do our research among two basic groups: the rich owners from whom we hoped to learn of their needs to oppress their females and young, and among the most exploited groups, in the compounds where women were kept ostensibly for their protection, along with their children. Among these “protected” groups, young nubile females – and not a few young pretty boys also – were chosen to sate the sexual and sadistic appetites of rich and powerful males. Many young women were simply auctioned off as house slaves or into the sex trade: to pimps and owners of proliferating brothels and entertainment houses.
As we casually walked among these people and interacted with them, using simple logic methods for questioning, we analyzed their ways and motives. In doing so it became obvious to us that they were not free of mind to do what they were doing. “Something” was driving them.
That “something” I concluded was an energy that emanated from one of Earth’s astral worlds. I remembered having had that idea long ago in another life on Earth. I had dubbed my “imaginary” world “Malefactus” – first as a joke and a play on words, then as a means of focusing on its reality – at least for me. A starting point. I advised my WindWalker group that I would de-incarnate from Earth, re-incarnate on the training astro-world Beta-9 for my license upgrade, some more basic training, and join the fight against the Melkiars as skipper of Jump Scout ships. Whatever I could learn on Earth I had already transferred via mind-jump through my Galactic Altarian contacts to be stored in Altarian archives dedicated to me as Al’Tara – copies to be filed on the galactic wandering library mind Aíoná.
Following this – I had a clear awareness that I would die in that war – I would return to Altaria for rest, refocusing and research on Malefactus. My plan was simple. Once I had enough information regarding that possible astral world, I would re-incarnate on it and proceed to do whatever could be done to effect change there – at what I hoped would be the source of Earth’s misogynist sickness.
As already mentioned I fought and died near the end of the Melkiar invasions. I spent some years on Altaria, found some of the information on Malefactus I had hoped to locate, and re-incarnated (manifested physically) on ‘Stack World minus four’ (SW-4) of the lower set of the six dark worlds where I am now living, or to put it in a more accurate sense, existing and surviving day to day, always under the shadow of imminent death, as are all of the women in this compound.’
This concludes the Michele Dellman article.
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